and still we do it

Friday, June 8th. Today, I did something I've told myself, promised myself, hundreds of times, would never do -- talk to him again. And still I did it. Against my better judgment, my family's expectation, the inferiority of his birth, my rank and circumstance, hahahaha...

Thorn Birds...

Long ago, there was a bird who sang just once in its life.
From the moment it left its nest, it searched for a thorn tree.
And it never rested until it found one.

Then it began to sing more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the earth.

And singing, it impaled its breast on the longest, sharpest thorn.
But as it was dying, it rose above its own agony to out-sing the lark and the nightingale.

The thorn bird pays its life for that one song and the whole world

stills to listen

and God, in His heaven ~ smiles.

As its best was bought only at the cost of great pain.
Driven to the thorn, with no knowledge of the dying to come.

But when we press the thorn to our breast, we know.
We understand.
And still we do it.
Still we do it.